We have been planning this Edventure for a few years and talking about it had always felt as though it was so far away in our future and sort of a surreal daydream.
Well it just got REAL !!
We leave in just over 2 weeks and now we are in full GO mode.
The butterflies are flying around inside me making me excited and terrified at the same time. I wondered what word would describe how I am feeling right now and thought of combining them into a made up word such as terrexcited or excitified but on looking up in the online dictionary I found it :
I am AMPED !
Most of the other words on this list also describe feelings I am currently having but I am trying to stay positive and not drown in my anxiety , so I’m taking on ‘amped’.
I have ‘fear’ that we are making the wrong decision to force this huge change to our kids but I push that fear away because how can a long exposure to other cultures, environments and international travel be wrong ?
I am ‘on edge’ because we don’t have the visas in our hand yet and I have an insane compulsion to be organised.
I am ‘frightened’ because I’m scared I’ll be homesick within 2 weeks.
‘Troubled’ hits home because leaving our eldest for the first time ( yes , he’s 23 BUT it’s his first time being a bachelor …oh that just gave another lurch … what state will my house be in when I get back??)
Security cameras are in place.
The kids and I will be alone in a house when Justin flies home to work , miles from my parents and what if someone tries to mess with us? This causes me to be ‘alarmed’. (The chances of anyone interfering with us is low. The house also has a high security fence and gates)
So it turns out that the definition of ‘angst ridden’ might be my state of mind currently.
Justin always seems so calm next to me. Actually, If you know me , most people seem calm next to me. I’m high energy.
In less than 3 weeks time when we arrive in Thailand and are settled into our house, far from here , there will be nothing I can change or fix, and so nothing to do but enjoy the moment. I have to let go and relax ( not in my nature ).
That little meerkat and boar have it right.
Wrong continent , right sentiment !
~ Arlene
Seven Months in Siam 